I Saw Something That Made Me Think Of You

I saw something today that reminded me of you.
I haven’t thought of you for at least 5 years and then all of a sudden
there you were
at the forefront of my thoughts.
I replayed our interaction over in my head
A friendship turned to dust because of one drunken night
and a tension that had been brewing for years
It’s so wild
I’m married
You’re….
I don’t actually know.
I used to be part of your family
And now I’m part of your
Used to be.
We never really talked about it
But I remember crying after it had happened
because I knew it meant things would change
and I was right.
For a year or so afterwards, we tried to pretend
You introduced me to your girlfriends
I introduced you to my boyfriend
It’s so wild
How much energy was used to maintain
that memory in my brain
just so it could pull it up today
Why today?
I haven’t thought of you
Now here you are
Asking me to make sense of
how 2 bottles of wine could erase
and entire history of friendship
while maintaining the painful fragments
of a relationship gone wrong.
Maybe this is why I don’t drink anymore.