Scarcity Is Rearing Her Ugly Head

Well, it’s happening just as expected. I am 2 weeks in to being at home without a studio/photography clients on the books and scarcity rises to the surface every day. Normally, I would give in and satiate her need to be in control, but I am trying something new…something where I don’t fuck myself over.

When scarcity thinking shows up for me (the fear that I am going to have no money or that I have no clients or that I’m not productive “enough” or…) I usually turn to my standard coping mechanisms: eating, shopping, working. I figure out of those 3 working is the least impactful in a bad way (though I know it can become bad) so I’ve been trying to keep busy by making working for myself instead of really forging ahead.

But here’s the thing: I knew this would happen as soon as I settled down from traveling. I knew my body would be exhausted and want to rest and my brain would be freaking the f * out and I would be caught in the middle. So, here’s what I am increasing daily to help me move through the discomfort:

Journaling - I am writing out everything that comes into my head, every day.
Walking - I am consistent with my morning walks (even though it snowed)
Listening to podcasts - I am filling my ears with everything from Human Design to business to mindset. Pumping that positivity.
Reading - I am reading books on subjects that interest me and will come in handy in upcoming course development.
Nature time - I am spending time outside even with the frigid cold. Being outside helps me stay grounded.
Deep breathing - When I feel my brain start to spiral it’s time to kick my deep breathing into action and I do a variation of 4X4 breathing and 4,7,8 breathing.
Meditation - When I have a spare 20-30 minutes I will use the To Be Magnetic app and do a meditation to calm my body and shift my mind towards possibility and away from scarcity.
Honesty - I am being honest with myself about what I am feeling and I allow myself to feel it all. It’s really squidgy and icky and frustrating - but it’s okay. I’m okay.

I am focused on teaching my Empowerment 4 Everybody class now which helps, in addition to writing for the blogs and getting ready to launch Body Image Bootcamp, but because I am future focused, my brain tends to do a lot of “future tripping”: worry about things that haven’t happened yet. I planned for this lull. I set aside savings for this reflection time. I am supported in this moment. My brain just doesn’t believe me - yet. But she will. This is a new way of doing things for us, so naturally it’s going to take a wee bit of practice and discomfort but I will be better for it in the long run.